Decision Rambling

I guess I am at a crossroad again, time to roll the dice…. and well, I need to make a decision and live with it whatever decision I make.

So, this is going to be a rambling post with me rambling on and on about… well, me! If you don’t like it, then just bug off. This is my blog. So I will ramble on with whatever I want to.

Many things have happened at home. Many changes. Lots of push factors. Not a lot of pull factor. Just push.

Most of the times I ask myself, what is it that I want out of life? God is fair. Each of us have our own lives and we get to decide what we want to do and what we want to be. And also to be fair, He gave us 24 hours everyday to do so. It does not matter whether you are the king or some important hotshot…. or a homeless guy bumming around.

And I still do not have an answer to that question.. What is it that I want in life?

I have the chance now to own my own brick and mortar business but do I really want to do it? It is going to take me away from my family during weekends and I don’t think it is worth it. Also, I am wondering whether this is the type of brick and mortar business that I want to be in. What if this is a mistake? It will be a lot of money and effort down the drain. Not to mention a lot of time lost… time spent with my loved ones.

Nothing is worth the time I spend with my loved ones… especially my dear hubby and 2 little rascals who grows up soooo fast! Now they are no longer needy little babies who can’t voice out what they want and needs mummy and daddy to decipher their many different squeals and cries.

I guess I need to prioritize and a balance in my life. Which is more important. And I need to pray a lot to ask myself what is God’s plan for me on this earth?

Decision Rambling

Tough Decisions Ahead Road Sign

 

I guess I am at a crossroad again…. and well, I need to make a decision and live with it whatever decision I make.

So, this is going to be a rambling post with me rambling on and on about… well, me! If you don’t like it, then just bug off. This is my blog. So I will ramble on with whatever I want to.

Many things have happened at home. Many changes. Lots of push factors. Not a lot of pull factor. Just push.

Most of the times I ask myself, what is it that I want out of life? God is fair. Each of us have our own lives and we get to decide what we want to do and what we want to be. And also to be fair, He gave us 24 hours everyday to do so. It does not matter whether you are the king or some important hotshot…. or a homeless guy bumming around.

And I still do not have an answer to that question.. What is it that I want in life?

I have the chance now to own my own brick and mortar business but do I really want to do it?

 

 

Waking up….

Yeap.. I have been hibernating and I won’t promise that I will not hibernate again :)

Since my kids are now aged 7(going on to 8) and 4(going on to 5), they sometimes says the darnedest things and to remember I think I should record it somehow… So I posted my first entry a few minutes ago(or was it an hour ago?) Anyway, I hope that there is more to come!

And blog will be revived!!

A wedding to remember, A lifetime to cherish

It was my cousin, Desmond’s wedding on this beautiful Saturday… The day dawned bright and beautiful and sunny…

We(our whole family) drove up to KL for the wedding and I would say this is one wedding that I enjoyed myself and would remember for the years to come. If I do have a choice and well, want to get married again 😛 (hey, I don’t want to get married again ok… I am truly in a happy marriage)… well, let’s just say a big IF (imagine back when I was still single la), this would be the sort of wedding that I would like. Hmmm… maybe plus a few modifications like having it in a church with a full mass(because I am a Catholic).

The reason why I liked this type of wedding is because it is formal and yet informal and it allows guests to mingle and the atmosphere is relaxed. So, basically everyone enjoyed themselves without the hassle of sitting down to a 3 hour banquet dinner with some mediocre food and torturous karaoke. Haha… for those of you who did not attend the wedding you must have no idea what I am talking about.

It was a Christian wedding and I have to admit this was my first… So, I did not know what to expect other than what I see during movies. We were about 20 minutes late and the wedding service started with some praise and worship songs, which lasted about half an hour. Thereafter came the formal part where there are scripture reading, sharing and the “I do” ceremony, proclaiming of vows and finally a song dedicated to the lovely couple by one of their friends. It was a beautiful ceremony. The bride looks ravishing and the groom… well, let’s say I have never seen him look so dashing before!

I love the decorations… simple and elegant.

And the food is definitely NOT the typical Chinese wedding dinner food. It was a buffet and the food was glorious. It was simply delicious and perfectly cooked :) I enjoyed it though I did not join the buffet lines. I was taking care of the young ones while hubby served us with the deliciously cooked food. Aiyah… no photos on the food though… but I liked their pineapple fried rice, bubur cha-cha, the nyonya kuih, mee jawa, kapitan chicken etc etc…

And I also liked the fact that only close friends and relatives are invited. So, there was basically no “sam ku lok por” (parents aunties/uncles/friends that you never meet before and will never meet again). After all, it is the couple’s wedding and not the parents 😛 And for me, I really support that!

So, yeah… if I really had the chance to organise a perfect wedding, I would do it this way :) Everything, all done in just under 2 hours… 2 relaxed happy hours :) Well, those who would like to hang back to lepak can do so, I guess. But with little ones in tow, we bid adieu after lunch… BURP!

Oh, and here are some photos of my little ones that I managed to snap! Joel did ask me though… why no yam seng one? Haha!

To Desmond and Rachel, this post is dedicated to both of you… May you both have a Wonderful, Blessed Marriage in the years to come!

**Note to hubby, if you are reading this… I love you very much so don’t you dare to suggest anything else.. 😛

Good Friday

Yeah… it’s Good Friday today… and somehow this day is always a sad day for me… it’s just like I feel closer to God on this special day.. Not that I expect you to understand it but it just somehow gets to me…

I just keep wishing that this day is over so that I can feel happy again.. but then I think I need this day to remind me of things, to remind me of who I am and where I am going.. And I need to admit it (and I have never admitted this before), although I have been a Catholic all my life, faithfully attended Cathechism classes when I was young, I still can’t understand how Jesus died on the cross to save us and to forgive all sins… I read the Bible and know all the Bible stories but the analytical mind in me still somehow can’t relate on how dying on the cross saves us… Jesus death on the cross was meant as a sacrifice to save mankind so that all sins will be forgiven through His death. So, why can’t God forgive without sacrifice? Since he is God and the highest authority, why must a sacrifice be required in order for Him to forgive? In the Old Testament of the Bible, animal sacrifices were used to cleanse the sins of the people. In the New Testament, Jesus had sacrificed Himself willingly to die on the cross and once-and-for-all so that all sins may be forgiven.

Gosh… I am a Catholic and I am asking these difficult questions…

So, in these convenient times, there is always Google. I found some answers which I shall elaborate here…

Found this from www.gotquestions.org

“There is no doubt that a sacrifice for sin was necessary if people are to have any hope of eternal life. God established the necessity of the shedding of blood to cover sin (Hebrews 9:22). In fact, God Himself performed the very first animal sacrifice to cover, temporarily, the sin of Adam and Eve. After He pronounced curses upon them, He killed an animal, shedding its blood, and made from it a covering for Adam and Eve (Genesis 3:21), thereby instituting the principle of animal sacrifice for sin. When He gave the Law to Moses, there were extensive instructions on how, when, and under what circumstances animal sacrifices were to be offered to Him. This was to continue until Christ came to offer the ultimate perfect sacrifice which made animal sacrifice no longer necessary. “But those sacrifices are an annual reminder of sins, because it is impossible for the blood of bulls and goats to take away sins” (Hebrews 10:3-4).

There are several reasons why the sacrifice of Christ on the cross does not violate the prohibition against human sacrifice. First, Jesus wasn’t merely human. If He were, then His sacrifice would have also been a temporary one because one human life couldn’t possibly cover the sins of the multitudes who ever existed. Neither could one finite human life atone for sin against an infinite God. The only viable sacrifice must be an infinite one, which means only God Himself could atone for the sins of mankind. Only God Himself, an infinite Being, could pay the penalty owed to Himself. This is why God had to become a Man and dwell among men (John 1:14). No other sacrifice would suffice.

Second, God didn’t sacrifice Jesus. Rather, Jesus, as God incarnate, sacrificed Himself. No one forced Him. He laid down His life willingly, as He made clear speaking about His life: “No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again” (John 10:18). God the Son sacrificed Himself to God the Father and thereby fulfilled all the requirements of the Law. Unlike the temporary sacrifices, Jesus’ once-for-all-time sacrifice was followed by His resurrection. He laid down His life and took it up again, thereby providing eternal life for all who would ever believe in Him and accept His sacrifice for their sins. He did this out of love for the Father and for all those the Father has given Him (John 6:37-40).”

It does answer my questions but the eternal question still remains… why is a sacrifice needed to forgive sins? It is written so in the Bible…. and the Bible is the word of Lord and the Law… so, we Catholics believe in the word of Lord and obey the Law. So, I guess we should just accept the fact that God requires a sacrifice, offered with an obedient and pure heart for the forgiveness of sins. And by that, God has sacrificed Himself so that sins of mankind can be forgiven if we repent.

And by believing and accepting that unconditionally(although it defies logic), I guess that is what we call FAITH…

Remembering Good Friday, the day Jesus died…

Vacation in Austria!!! – Hotel Evido, Salzburg

This will just be a short post of our hotel in Austria… Hotel Evido… hmmm… It is not actually a hotel building by itself but rather it takes up the whole first floor of an apartment building and convert it to a budget hotel of 20 rooms.

Entrance to Hotel Evido… looks a bit shady, rite? But it is OK after you get to the first floor into the hotel area….

We booked a double room but when we checked in, we were given a triple room… for the price of a double room. Sweet!

Our small room… it comes with a fan during summer… no air-cond…
The sofa and writing table…
Shower… it’s clean and that is the most important thing to me!
A narrow cupboard and a place to put our luggage…

Breakfast was very basic.. but sufficient.. The only complaint is that the breakfast area is very small and thus could not accommodate all the guests at one time… So, get to breakfast early or you need to wait for someone to finish before you can sit down and eat.

The distance from Hotel Evido to the train/bus station is very near… about 300m away…. so it was very convenient for us to go visiting. Plus, if you have cravings for some Chinese food after having sandwiches practically every meal, there is a Chinese restaurant nearby ran by a Hongkie couple…

All in all, Hotel Evido works well for our needs… :)