Waking up….

Yeap.. I have been hibernating and I won’t promise that I will not hibernate again :)

Since my kids are now aged 7(going on to 8) and 4(going on to 5), they sometimes says the darnedest things and to remember I think I should record it somehow… So I posted my first entry a few minutes ago(or was it an hour ago?) Anyway, I hope that there is more to come!

And blog will be revived!!

Good Friday

Yeah… it’s Good Friday today… and somehow this day is always a sad day for me… it’s just like I feel closer to God on this special day.. Not that I expect you to understand it but it just somehow gets to me…

I just keep wishing that this day is over so that I can feel happy again.. but then I think I need this day to remind me of things, to remind me of who I am and where I am going.. And I need to admit it (and I have never admitted this before), although I have been a Catholic all my life, faithfully attended Cathechism classes when I was young, I still can’t understand how Jesus died on the cross to save us and to forgive all sins… I read the Bible and know all the Bible stories but the analytical mind in me still somehow can’t relate on how dying on the cross saves us… Jesus death on the cross was meant as a sacrifice to save mankind so that all sins will be forgiven through His death. So, why can’t God forgive without sacrifice? Since he is God and the highest authority, why must a sacrifice be required in order for Him to forgive? In the Old Testament of the Bible, animal sacrifices were used to cleanse the sins of the people. In the New Testament, Jesus had sacrificed Himself willingly to die on the cross and once-and-for-all so that all sins may be forgiven.

Gosh… I am a Catholic and I am asking these difficult questions…

So, in these convenient times, there is always Google. I found some answers which I shall elaborate here…

Found this from www.gotquestions.org

“There is no doubt that a sacrifice for sin was necessary if people are to have any hope of eternal life. God established the necessity of the shedding of blood to cover sin (Hebrews 9:22). In fact, God Himself performed the very first animal sacrifice to cover, temporarily, the sin of Adam and Eve. After He pronounced curses upon them, He killed an animal, shedding its blood, and made from it a covering for Adam and Eve (Genesis 3:21), thereby instituting the principle of animal sacrifice for sin. When He gave the Law to Moses, there were extensive instructions on how, when, and under what circumstances animal sacrifices were to be offered to Him. This was to continue until Christ came to offer the ultimate perfect sacrifice which made animal sacrifice no longer necessary. “But those sacrifices are an annual reminder of sins, because it is impossible for the blood of bulls and goats to take away sins” (Hebrews 10:3-4).

There are several reasons why the sacrifice of Christ on the cross does not violate the prohibition against human sacrifice. First, Jesus wasn’t merely human. If He were, then His sacrifice would have also been a temporary one because one human life couldn’t possibly cover the sins of the multitudes who ever existed. Neither could one finite human life atone for sin against an infinite God. The only viable sacrifice must be an infinite one, which means only God Himself could atone for the sins of mankind. Only God Himself, an infinite Being, could pay the penalty owed to Himself. This is why God had to become a Man and dwell among men (John 1:14). No other sacrifice would suffice.

Second, God didn’t sacrifice Jesus. Rather, Jesus, as God incarnate, sacrificed Himself. No one forced Him. He laid down His life willingly, as He made clear speaking about His life: “No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again” (John 10:18). God the Son sacrificed Himself to God the Father and thereby fulfilled all the requirements of the Law. Unlike the temporary sacrifices, Jesus’ once-for-all-time sacrifice was followed by His resurrection. He laid down His life and took it up again, thereby providing eternal life for all who would ever believe in Him and accept His sacrifice for their sins. He did this out of love for the Father and for all those the Father has given Him (John 6:37-40).”

It does answer my questions but the eternal question still remains… why is a sacrifice needed to forgive sins? It is written so in the Bible…. and the Bible is the word of Lord and the Law… so, we Catholics believe in the word of Lord and obey the Law. So, I guess we should just accept the fact that God requires a sacrifice, offered with an obedient and pure heart for the forgiveness of sins. And by that, God has sacrificed Himself so that sins of mankind can be forgiven if we repent.

And by believing and accepting that unconditionally(although it defies logic), I guess that is what we call FAITH…

Remembering Good Friday, the day Jesus died…

Feeling of apprehension

This has been looming… just that it did not materialize… YET

But now it seems like 99% it is confirmed and going to materialize… and hence the strong feeling of apprehension…

Daddy will be going off for a full 6 months… It is a good career move. Daddy should go.

Actually, he can either go for either 6 months or 2 years. If he goes for 6 months, then the family will need to stay behind. If he goes for 2 years, then the whole family can go. So… 6 months or 2 years?

It has sort of been decided that it will be 6 months. Why? It is more practical. There is no need to uproot the whole family. We would not know how the family will adapt to the whole new environment. And if we cannot adapt, we would need to live with it for 2 whole years. There is no turning back. Also, there will be so much more things to arrange here. Who to take care of the house? Who to take care of Dewey, our furkid? Do we sell off our cars? What will happen to my online business? Do I put it on hold for 2 years?

On the other hand, if we do not grab this chance now to spend some time living overseas, will we have another chance in the future? We only got one life… so should we not live it to the fullest? Being together as a family, we could be strong for each other and face challenges together? I really want to try and experience what is life like overseas… Is grass really greener over there? Or is it all just an illusion?

Besides that, I am scared… to be “alone” for 6 months… I know, when crunch time is up, I will be able to face it… I am strong enough to do that… Just that, it is going to be difficult for me. But if it is going to be difficult for me, it is going to be even more difficult for daddy. I should be strong to support him, and not being difficult.. but it’s hard…

I just pray and hope that I have the strength and courage to face whatever that will come… soon…

And now that I have blogged about it, I feel better. Still apprehensive, still scared… but better.

Picky Eater

I’ve got a picky eater in the house…. I am really out of my wits…

Every meal time is like war time… He gets stressed, I get stressed. I don’t look forward to meal times and neither does he…

I’ve browsed websites, tried out the methods there and nothing seems to work… tried bribing, punishing, limiting his mealtimes to half and hour, giving him just a little so that he can finish and boost his confidence, spoonfeed him, don’t spoonfeed him, forcing him to sit at the table until he finishes his food (which sometimes can take more than and hour and in the end he just swallows his food with water like taking pills…)

Also tried cooking his favourite things, coaxing him to try new stuff, and even with his favourites, he would not enthusiastically finish his meal… some will still be leftover in his bowl… (unless I force him to finish, of course)

So yeah… really, I don’t know what else I can do to encourage my boy to eat more… anyone got any ideas????

 

My first video…

Recently, we went to A Famosa (the theme park with hotels and condotels and golf course.. not the A Famosa ruins…) and this blur mama did not bring the charger for the camera and when the camera ran out of battery, I had to use the camcorder…. and so, here is my first attempt in editing a video..

This video shows the Elephant Show in the Animal Safari in A Famosa…. just a little teaser to my upcoming long post of our short family vacation there!

Oh, by the way, I just found out that Windows has this cool software (that comes together with Windows…which means it is free…. YAY!!!) that can edit videos… and this is what I used to edit this first video…. It’s called the Windows Movie Maker and a quick google brought me some simple guides on how to use this tool..

Yeah… I know this is probably very basic for some people as You Tube has been around for ages already but I just got acquainted with this… so very “mountain turtle” leh…

Anyway, enjoy this little video and give me some comments… while I get going to write the long, long, long review of our short holiday….