I guess I am at a crossroad again, time to roll the dice…. and well, I need to make a decision and live with it whatever decision I make.
So, this is going to be a rambling post with me rambling on and on about… well, me! If you don’t like it, then just bug off. This is my blog. So I will ramble on with whatever I want to.
Many things have happened at home. Many changes. Lots of push factors. Not a lot of pull factor. Just push.
Most of the times I ask myself, what is it that I want out of life? God is fair. Each of us have our own lives and we get to decide what we want to do and what we want to be. And also to be fair, He gave us 24 hours everyday to do so. It does not matter whether you are the king or some important hotshot…. or a homeless guy bumming around.
And I still do not have an answer to that question.. What is it that I want in life?
I have the chance now to own my own brick and mortar business but do I really want to do it? It is going to take me away from my family during weekends and I don’t think it is worth it. Also, I am wondering whether this is the type of brick and mortar business that I want to be in. What if this is a mistake? It will be a lot of money and effort down the drain. Not to mention a lot of time lost… time spent with my loved ones.
Nothing is worth the time I spend with my loved ones… especially my dear hubby and 2 little rascals who grows up soooo fast! Now they are no longer needy little babies who can’t voice out what they want and needs mummy and daddy to decipher their many different squeals and cries.
I guess I need to prioritize and a balance in my life. Which is more important. And I need to pray a lot to ask myself what is God’s plan for me on this earth?